This is so annoying.
I have so many projects rattling around in my head. I’m keeping up with scrapbooking just about every week, for Ali Edwards’ Yesterday And Today online class. Mind you, I’m not doing the layouts as she specs it out in the “How To” part of each class. Her style isn’t my style. I don’t want to do layouts like that. So instead, I’m doing the layouts in my own style, but using what I’ve learned in the class. I figure that’s good enough.
Besides that, while watching her class lesson last week, she showed an album she did for her son, with a 2 page layout for each important person in her son’s life. It contained a picture of the person and a bunch of random facts about that person. Now I SOOOO want to do this for H. I have the supplies and everything. It’s a mini book, and I have an unopened mini book from 7Gypsies sitting upstairs in my stash. I could so do this!
And then…and then….I haven’t yet scrapbooked any of the pictures for H’s baby book. Mind you, it’s a non-traditional baby book. I’m not doing the old standby boring baby book. (Yes I have one and I’m filling it out, but not pasting pictures in it. It’s BORING.) No, I’m scrapbooking the information, along with other things to do with her babyhood, as I feel like it. So really, there’s no pressure. I should just be done by the time she’s like…30 or something.
Plus there’s my grandpa’s Brazil travel book I’m half way through and haven’t touched since 2008.
Now, to top this all off….Becky Higgin’s Project Life came in the mail today. No I’m not crazy and doing a photo a day. I’m highlighting whatever happened in that week. So I’m shooting for a couple photos a week, and that’s about it. Then I’ll print and put my photos in the page protectors and layouts. It’ll be fun! I…took the plastic off the box, so far.
But see, here’s the big problem. I rather feel like I shouldn’t be allowed to do any of this stuff. I shouldn’t take any time right now to do anything fun and enjoyable for me. Why? Well…instead shouldn’t I be pounding the pavement? I’ve got things in the works and appointments and stuff. But I almost feel like I shouldn’t do anything fun until I’ve found work. Like that should be my ONLY project. Sigh. I’m going to drive myself insane, is what it is.
NOOOOO!!! you should be taking some time for yourself!! You need the down time….you don’t want to take something and then feel like if you had waited something better would come along! Trust me, been there, done that!!! And I ended up quitting the job that I didn’t want and was unemployed again!! SO NOOO!!! Take the time and do things you want!!!!
I second that!!! Take some time for yourself. It will make you feel better in the long run. Take a job that makes you happy & do things in your life that make you happy!!! Doing that will make everything better .
Speaking as someone who went through an extended unemployment phase (I’m sure you won’t, just saying that I’m the voice of experience here), not allowing yourself any fun is a recipe for clinical depression. I felt the same way…I didn’t go out, I felt guilty for knitting, and it really, really sucked. And once I found work? I began kicking myself for not making better use of all of that formerly “free” time. D’oh.